angry tears

Back when PS was The Guest, I didn’t understand why I felt compelled to do right by her. My package of toilet tissue is long gone and she’s still around. We’ve bonded in a way that people do only when they’ve both experienced tough situations.

Today, I’m angry. But not at her. PS has a female that she’s been dealing with for at least 6 months. This is the person that should’ve been offering her a helping hand. She’s known her longer than she’s known me. Today, this female suggested she leave me behind when she moves. It made PS so mad she told the girl not to call her anymore and then she busted into tears.

I didn’t understand the emotion behind it. By nature, I’m not an emotional person, but as I listened to her talk about it, things started to click. It’s all about the little things…

PS came to stay with me when her brother kicked me out. He gave her $25 and left her on her own. She relied on me and though I don’t feel like I’ve done anything besides what I was supposed to do, what I was raised to do, it’s evidently impacted her in a very big way.

Now I’m angry. She made her cry. Not silent tears, but some serious body jerking tears. My shoulder is still damp from my attempts to console her.

I’m angry because this girl has smiled in my face and tried to be my friend. This girl has thanked me for letting her contact PS on my cell. I know she better not call back…