Count your blessings
It’s early. It was about 3:30am when I got out of bed. I woke about an hour before that. People around here had to get up to go to work and since this is the first time I’ve been around internet. I decided to take advantage…Besides. I can’t sleep…
Friday, PK stayed at work while the Baby and I ran errands to get the move situated. I was more than a little irritated when I realized they waited until the day of to get the electric and gas situated. I had originally asked about this before I even came out here. The electric was fine, but the gas company said it was already on in someone else’s name and they needed a copy of the lease with the address to get it transferred over. That’s what the Baby explained to me in the car on the way to pick up the keys.
The keys were not on site. The keys were at the management company’s office which was supposed to be about 25 miles away. However, someone (not sure if it was PK or the Baby) put the address into the navigation system wrong and we ended up driving 30 miles more than we should’ve. While I was on this ride, I realized that the Baby is really just that. She’s a kid, incapable of doing anything that requires her to have a unique thought. It sounds mean, I know, but it’s true.
I read through her paperwork for the apartment. It’s the first time I’ve seen any of these documents. One paper clearly states that the utilities are in the management office’s name and that they should’ve started a few days earlier to get the utilities switched over. I tell the Baby that. She doesn’t seem to understand what I’m saying.
We finally make it to the office and it’s crowded. Everyone is coming in to pay rent and get receipts. The woman is going over paperwork. She explains how to get a new key for the mailbox. She explains how to do a maintenance request. She explains about the utilities. The Baby tells her what the gas company needs and the woman simply writes the address on the copy of the lease the Baby brought with her. Easy as 1, 2, 3. The woman then states that without gas, there wouldn’t be heat or cooking.
We leave there to go to the apartment and there is a guy there putting some lacquer on the hardwoods. He tells us how to work around him and we start loading things in. He leaves and we’re free to move around and investigate things.
The apartment is cute. It’s really small. But it’s got beautiful new windows and lots of light. Shiny hardwood floors. Granite countertops, new appliances, pantry. Designer lighting. It’s a cool, but small spot. Ok, so the bathtub is pink. You can’t have it all.
There is this space under the kitchen counter. In the pictures online, they have one of those convertible washer/dryers. Have you seen them? It’s one unit and it’s a washer/dryer in one. I tell the Baby and she looks at me like I’m making it up. “I’ve never heard of them before.” I wanted to hit her because I’m sure I could fill volumes of things she hasn’t heard of…
She leaves to go to work. Of course the first thing I do is pull out my laptop and search for a signal. Nothing. Some of you may have gotten a frantic twitter about my lack of internet access…lol. Thanks for understanding.
When PK came home that night. He started complaining. Everything about this place was unacceptable. The Baby mentions the lack of heat. He says, “But there is an air conditioning unit outside…” I had my headphones on and I’m glad I did because I would’ve laughed. Air conditioning, yes. Just because there is a unit doesn’t mean it provides heat too. When I first called about this place that was the first thing I asked about. I hate having seperate bills like that. I warned the Baby, but no one listens to me. What do I know? I’ve only been on my own for the last 11 years.
The happy couple worked from 7am to 7pm Saturday and Sunday. Both nights they came home grumpier and grumpier. I was getting tired of hearing both of them complain. That’s all I heard from the minute they walked through the front door. They are complaining while I would jump to be in their position any day. Ok, maybe not be in the military, but to have a gig that was going to pay my housing, my utilities, and buy my groceries. Did they not understand that there were people out there in much worse positions than them? No, they don’t understand and that irritates me.
I feel strongly that too much complaining blocks your blessings. If you can’t be thankful for what you already have, why should you be blessed with more?
Anyway, I found out Saturday that the Baby doesn’t know if she wants to be with me or not. After an intial jolt of self pity, I felt relieved. I didn’t cry about it. I was glad to finally know where I stand. And I realized that after all of this, I couldn’t be with her either.
She said to me that she thought that maybe I saw her as something she wasn’t. Possibly, she pretended to be something she wasn’t. In any event, she’s not the person I want. When she was unsure about being with me, I considered myself single. She came home that evening, laid on top of me and tried to be affectionate. I looked at her like she was stupid. I ignored her, until she asked me a direct question and then I let her ass have it. She didn’t even respond, she just rolled over.
See what happens when I don’t have internet access? I spend way too much time playing catch up. And I’m not done…Grrr…More later…
Wow. I’ll wait for the rest later…
And i thought just me and the military were up this early, lol. The rest of the post is written, just didn’t want to post too much at once. It’ll be posted in about 8 hours…lol
Wow moving can always be a Bish. It’s good to find out everything before hand but, it doesn’t always work out that way. I wasn’t expecting to read at the end of this that the baby wasn’t sure if she wanted to be with you or not and you feeling the same. Maybe you guys are just stressed and trying to adapt to the new living situation. If you guys want it to work I hope it does work out for you.
wow! seems like the Baby has a lot to learn about being a grown up. i do hope things work out for the best…
@Glennisha- Moving can be the biggest bitch. That’s why responsible people ask questions and do everything they need to do before the big day. Now these people aren’t even staying in an apartment they are paying for…But you’ll hear about that more later…I wasn’t expecting to have to write about this uncertaininty either. I may end up writing another full post about why I feel the way I do, I’m not sure this completely captured it.
@Tami- The Baby has a lot to learn about everything! Including herself. She’s morphs into all of these different people to suit whomever is around her…
Wow…I am lost for words here. *Sigh*
Oh no! She waits to tell you this after you move in with her? WTF?!
There’s a lot going on there, and I hope you guys get it worked out. It seems like the Baby has a lot of living to do, and you can’t do it for her. You were so excited in the beginning and I hate that you have come to this point. My heart goes out to you.
Maybe you too need to be alone together for a bit. To really talk this out. After all of this there is something there, an original flame. Find it. Relive it. Of course I could be wrong but you have invested too much in this relationship not to try. I would wish you luck but but love would probably be more helpful. As for her not being thankful well it happens. She isn’t in the situation for her to be thankful so she doesn’t see it. I think. In that you can’t change. No matter how much you try to point it out, she’d have to live it herself. At the end of the day you love her and she loves you …right?
So make that enough.
I was so unprepared for the last few paragraphs! I hope this is just a snag and that you guys can repair ur relationship. Good Luck!
I’m sorry things are feeling twisted and I really hope the two of you can work it out. I believe having three people in this relationship always makes working things out more difficult – but it can still be done. My fingers are crossed for you. If by chance and after lots of trying, it doesn’t work out then wait a bit before falling apart. Sometimes life has something better planned for you and its just around the corner. Maybe it will be a new job or a new adventure. I’m hoping something fantastic comes your way. If I lived there, I’d invite you over for tea and a talk so you wouldn’t feel alone.
((((((Alix)))))) I’m sorry things aren’t going so well for you at the moment. If things aren’t salvageable between you and her, maybe there’ll be something more suited to you around the corner? I hope so because you’re pretty damn neat xxxx
SMH…Well, at least you know. I should’ve read this post before the one about you staying at dude’s place. I would have commented a little differently. When are you going back to Georgia or anywhere besides with Baby?
I was sitting here, taking a break to come and check up on you and I get to the end and I’m shocked. Hot damn…people really know how to twist shit up on you, after you’ve asked them already how they feel…
I’m working on being optimistic so…I hope it all works out.
Tell me if I’m trippin’ when I say there is snow on your page…lmao
@AJ- It must be bad if you have no words
@Brianne- That’s some BS, right?
@deepdiva- It’s a bit of a reality check. I’m alright though
@erica- The love isn’t there anymore.
@Jonathan- There has to be something better out there for me, but I’m not sure I’ll recognize it when it shows itself.
@ladybug- As soon as I get ID, I’m gone.
@stillbee- People always change their mind. That’s why trust is such a big issue. Snow? What snow? lol, yes, it’s snowing in a brown girl’s world…
You are so right about blocking your blessings. You’ll recognize a good thing when it comes along because you will be able to appreciate it.
@Jonathan- There has to be something better out there for me, but I’m not sure I’ll recognize it when it shows itself.
Alix, you WILL recognise it when it presents itself xxx