Dang! I gotta big mouth…
On Tuesday, the Baby wanted to take me to VA DMV to get an ID. She called me just after I’d spoken to someone at GA DMV, so I told her I didn’t need to go. When she got off from work that evening, she came in happy and smiling. I hadn’t seen her in such good spirits in a few days. She came in saying that we needed to talk. She sat down and said to me that she was inconveniencing T and having me here was an added inconvenience, so we needed to hurry up and get me back home.
She wanted me to go to VA’s DMV to get ID today. I simply said okay. If I hadn’t learned anything else since being here, it’s that she doesn’t believe anything I happen to know for fact, it has to be proven to her, so fine. We’ll go sit at the DMV so they can say no to her face. She made a big deal out of asking if I was mad at her. I feel like she was putting on a show for T considering he was sitting next to her on the couch. And I was pissed, but I couldn’t express it and I felt as though my head was about to pop.
She went to bed 10 minutes later. T said that PK took her aside to day to talk to her and she came back crying. He said that to give a reason for her rushing me out of state.
I was in a mood for the rest of the night. T picked up on it and kept asking me to talk. I kept shutting him down. He went in the room with the Baby and I heard him say something to her about her laughing and giggling on the phone.
It hit me then that there was something else going on that I didn’t know about.
I pay attention to people. To their patterns, to their priorities, how they interact with people. Generally, people are creatures of habit and they don’t change very much.
The Baby sleeps when she’s tired. She doesn’t sit up on the phone and laugh and giggle with random people…unless it’s someone she’s crushing on.
Her rushing me out of town, the phone conversation. She’s trying to move me out of the way so she can move forward with someone else. Who? Male? Female? I don’t know.
I could feel my blood bubbling in my veins. I wanted to beat this bitch down…And I’m normally such a nonviolent person…
T continued to press. He alternated between hitting on me and asking to be my confidante.
Yall, I cracked. I started crying. I blabbed the entire story. I feel so guilty. It wasn’t my intention. He said he already knew. That was why he came at me so hard. He talked about how obvious it was, just by looking at the way PK and the Baby interact.
Today, the Baby text me, asking if I was ok. She hasn’t asked that since the first day I was here. I asked her why I wouldn’t be ok. My guess is that T must have hinted at something. She asked me to call VA’s DMV and ask them if what she wanted done was possible. I did. It’s not. She referred me back to GA, but we already knew that would happen right? I gave her the number there and asked her to see for herself.
OMFG. Alix, please get out of this situation the best possible way. This is really getting a bit too out of control.
I’m trying! You asked for more…
*way* too much drama. you *so* deserve better. git on outta there, girl.
That’s the thing about secrets.. they always come out, and never the way you want them to. You have suffered enough.. I say it’s the Baby’s turn! Ok, that may be a little harsh.. I take that back. Kinda.
“Gimme, gimme more, gimme more…gimme, gimme MORE!”
@Jessica- I know!
@Bella- lol, kinda?
@AJ- Thanks for the Britney impression.
Well at least you got to let it out. Keeping all of that inside probably would have just continued to make you feel worse. I still can’t believe that all of this is happening though. Just continue to keep your head up.
WTF?! This is so fucked up, Alix. I can’t even believe it.
So the friends part after the relationship is so out of the picture. lol
Uhm. wow. What can I say. It happens. You know one day you’re gonna look back on this and laugh and laugh.
I think at the very least you deserve to know what exactly went wrong. Ya know?
but hey. that’s all you.
Like I said you will be just fine. =]
@Glennisha- It has definitely made things easier for me. I feel lighter.
@Brianne- I can’t believe it either! I feel like I’m living in some crazy nightmare.
@Erica- It’s funny you say that because she asked me earlier if we were friends. I told her that wasn’t something I could answer now. This is after I told her that I didn’t like her very much.
Hiya Alix.
I subscribed and started reading about your journey on Monday.
Bein in a relationship with currently, and me being 6+ yrs her senior…I can definitly relate to what you are going through. You’re seeing the relationship for what it finally is. A new year is approaching and I feel so is a new start for you. Stay positive. I will be waiting for your next post.
Heeey 1! I love, love, love new commenters! Thanks for reading and participating. How do you feel about being the older woman?
Honestly it’s tough… Sometimes I’ll turn to her after hearing or seeing something old, and be like…do you remember???…and she’s like “NO”. (o.O) I’m 32 and she’s 26
this is crazy, get the hell out of dodge.
okay, im back…you know, i don’t know how you do it…but i would have to beat her down. she wouldn’t know a good woman if she…well, moved from ATL and travelled many hours and popped right in her lap. she is a child and deserves to stay where she is with her childish ways.
That’s good. You can now be a little less stressed. Once you get out of there then you’ll really feel light. Real light.
See, Tami and I have the same mind.. Because I don’t think I could have resisted the urge to knock some sense in her head…or pound some sense into her head from the floor…. I know, I know…violence doesn’t solve anything..
I feel your pain. And I’m glad you’re getting out before you got strapped nursing some man’s baby and paying all the bills. aaaargh! Also, beat downs are not allowed. Keep your hands clean and thank her for letting you know this stuff now rather than later. arrrrgh!
I’m with Bella. I say we all form a posse and beat that bitch down
Just kidding. *but if you change your mind, we can have a car waiting*
@1- There is something to be said for dating closer to your age, but at the same time, I think you get that much more frustrated with immaturity. At least if they are young, they got a reason to act the way they do.
@Bella, Tami and Diva- Trust me, my mermaid, JP and PS have already had a few choice words for the things they’d like to see happen to her. I’m just not violent though. I believe karma is a mf’er
@Glennisha- It’s odd, but I’m starting to feel lighter already and I haven’t even written about tonights drama…It’s never ending
@steadycat- I’m a lover, not a fighter, lol. Seriously, I’ve never been in a fight, though I’ve wanted to smack a few people around…If I have to hit someone to get my point across, it doesn’t seem worth it…
Wow, Pup, I can’t turn my back on you! I’m glad you told, and I see I have some more catching up to do!
Been crazy busy over here, but tomorrow’s my car day again, so hopefully we can talk…
Oh Alix! I’ve been *cough* busy. To echo a few others…I can’t believe this is happening. That was very forward of her, literally pushing you off like that. Just….wow. I hope something cracks before the new year and you can start off fresh. This whole thing is so messed up…
@Sip- i bet you have been busy…you little whore
I’m so jealous!