On the 27th of each month, I seem to be full of apologies. My behavior around that time is a bit emotional, a bit irrational and I’m overly sensitive.
Yes, it’s that time of the month.
My periods have always been irregular, with a cycle that was longer than the usual 28 days. I could never predict when my period was coming on…Until now. When my behavior starts becoming erratic and tears start to flow with the slightest provocation, I look at the calendar, I check my breasts for tenderness and I groan.
Deep down, I can see that my behavior is out of the ordinary, even while I’m in the midst of my crazy actions, but the more I try to reign myself in, the more over the top my behavior becomes. And after it’s all said and done, I’m left apologizing to the Lil Monkey…
Unfortunately, my craziness is always directed towards her.
Sigh.
I wonder if this is an over 30 thing. I know your hormones start to change as you get older…
I wonder if it’s a long distance relationship thing and I act out because I miss her…
I’m looking for an answer because this is new to me. I haven’t always been like this. And I most definitely haven’t focused these energies towards someone I love…
So what is it?
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It could be a mixture of everything you just said. Emotions, your cycle. The distance. The one thing you do have to remember though, is in long distant relationships, all you have is communication. The second you start going off, being unstable with your words/emotions, it can be much harder than it already is. The good news is, you may have found someone that cares/loves you so much that this one time of each month they prepare for the worse and love you afterwords. That is rare. Try your best to hang on to that and express you love in a better emotion than rage lol. You can do it. You know you’re a cornball at heart haha. And there’s noting wrong with apologizing. Here’s when it is…when you keep apologizing for the same ting over and over and never growing. And when you flat out just dont apologize at all. Just food for thought.
Me a cornball? Not I said the brown girl…
I totally agree with everything you said..Im going through it now…and didnt realize until you said something. lol. Luckily im single and do not have anyone to take it out on anymore. And for the questions you asked after the sigh…I wouldnt believe anything that pops up in my mind until its over.
Crazy how you know what your going through, and you know your out of character…but things still seem to make sense. (still wouldnt trust it)
*smiles*
<3 your blog!
Hiya MissMaculate!
So I’m not the only one? *releases sigh of relief* It’s frustrating, right?
Thanks for coming by. Don’t be a stranger…
I used to be the same way, but I had the intense, bend-over-and-touch-someone-else’s toes kind of pain. You rolled about in the bed for a day and a half. But that is memory now. And I’m fine with that.
It does get better. Get a hot or cold something to press at your middle and pop a DVD in and laugh!
Aaaaaaaah!
@Goddess- It’s not even the pain that gets me, it’s the hormones. At least I can pop a few pills for the pain. And that only lasts for the first day. The hormones…That’s a few days before I actually start bleeding…
I think it’s the over 30 thing. Oddly enough after 30 my cycle has been more regular and I have been less emotional. BUT the woman I am seeing has lately being going through all of that, so I am pretty sure your hormones are just trippin’.
CJ- Maybe it works in reverse? I was never a really emotional person until after I turned 30, then commercials & movies will have me tearing up like the ultimate sap, lol…Good luck with your lady. I hope you’re as understanding as my lil monkey.