Skip the day

It’s been grey, damp and dreary all week in Atlanta. I can’t help but to feel like the weather has mirrored my mood.

I could stand outside in the rain and my face wouldn’t be any wetter than it is right now.

It will be my birthday in a few hours. I wish I could skip the day. I dread the hanging of the date knowing my mama isn’t around to acknowledge it.

I’ve never made a big deal of my birthday. It has always meant a lot to me to have people remember and do something thoughtful rather than some kind of grand gesture.

Mama would always buy me a card and something simple. Candy. Something with Tweety on it. It never really mattered what it was because I knew how much thought she put into everything.

Can we just skip to the 15th?

I really don’t want to pretend to be happy when I’m not.

I can’t.

I can’t.

What Others Are Saying

  1. Ankhesen Mié Oct 13, 2011 at 10:24 pm

    On the upside, you’re from Atlanta. Same city as Amaya Radjani.
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  2. MelloSoul Oct 14, 2011 at 9:44 am

    Life… My brother expressed similar sentiments to me about his bday(he wants to skip to the 16th. We lost our mother about 6wks ago and it’s going to be his 1st without her! Here’s a *Salhug* to help you get through your day!!

  3. GreyGirl Oct 14, 2011 at 3:22 pm

    Oh, dear. I can’t imagine what you must be feeling. But would your mom really want you to be so sad? Maybe you should do something in her honor? Go look at the Tweety cards in the Hallmark aisle and laugh. Just a thought. Don’t like to see you so sad :-( Happy Birthday anyway. I’m sure you are your mother’s pride and joy.

    XOXO
    GreyGirl
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  4. Red Oct 16, 2011 at 6:49 pm

    I respect your feelings. However, I don’t think your mom would want you to skip your birthday. I mean after all on that day … a diva was born!

  5. Karen Nov 3, 2011 at 7:15 am

    I know the feeling of pretending to be happy especially on your birth day. It is still your special day and I hope all that sadness was gone during your birthday. I am curious to know how that day turned out.
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