I suppose this is the time of year where people start to reflect on the past. I think about all of the mistakes I’ve made and I wonder why I didn’t see them coming. I think about how I could’ve done things differently, how I could’ve made better choices. I think about the consequences of the choices I’ve made…
In church, they always say that God has a plan for us. No matter what choice or decision I make, the plan for my life has already been written. Makes me feel a little foolish when I think about it. I’m walking around contemplating my options when the outcome is going to be whatever He wants anyway. I may end up taking a longer, roundabout way to get there, but I’ll always end up in the destination He’s chosen for me.
Reflecting back on how my life has change in the last 2 years gives me a headache. All of the things I deemed as important no longer exist. My life is simpler. I have everything I need and I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time. To say that I’ve been humbled would be the biggest understatement of 2009.
I don’t believe that if I had stayed on the same path, that I would’ve found the happiness that I craved. I had to live a different lifestyle, have a different attitude, go through a load of BS to appreciate my life as it is today. It is that appreciation for a simpler life that has freed me to pursue happiness.
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Alix, I struggle with this everyday. Sometimes you have to let go and let God. With that being said, I would love to see what He has in store for both of us in 2010. We’ll just have to wait and see.
May the happiness you’ve found continue in the new year! It’s been a pleasure reading your blog.
L.
so true and Merry Christmas!!
I agree with every word you’ve said. I believe that we learn from every thing that we go through, and you should grow from every thing that you go through. If you don’t learn and grow from it, then you end up repeating it. It sounds to me like you’ve learned, and you’re in the process of growing. I commend you!
Happy New Year!